Tuesday, December 11, 2007

fear; november 12, 2006

THE MORE I GET TO KNOW PEOPLE THE MORE I UNDERSTAND HOW AFRAID THEY REALLY ARE. EVERYDAY I SEE PEOPLE THAT ARE SO AFRAID OF WHAT MAY HAPPEN THAT THE LOOSE THEIR ABILITY TO LET GO. SOMETIMES, THE VERY THING YOU HOLD ON TO THE HARDEST IS THE THING YOU WOULD MOST LIKE TO GIVE UP. MAYBE YOU HOLD ON BECAUSE YOUR SCARED THAT THERES NOTHING ELSE OUT THERE... SO YOU HOLD ON OUT OF SELFISHNESS... OR MAYBE YOUR TO SCARED OF WHAT OTHER PEOPLE MAY THINK. MAYBE YOUR SCARED...NOT OF WHAT YOU WILL LOOSE BUT OF WHAT YOU MAY OR MAY NOT FIND. YOU THINK, WHAT IF THIS IS AS GOOD AS IT GETS FOR ME, END OF THE LINE, THE BEST IT CAN EVER BE. SO INSTEAD OF EMBRACING THE CHANGE AND LETTING GO TO WHAT HAS BEEN LOST YOU HOLD ON... BECAUSE AT LEAST IF YOUR SUFFERING THE PAIN IS FAMILIAR... BECAUSE WHO KNOWS, IF YOU STEP OUTSIDE OF YOUR BOX OR DO SOMETHING UNEXPECTED WHO KNOWS WHAT MIGHT BE OUT THERE WAITING ON YOU...AND CHANCES ARE IT COULD BE WORSE. I DONT THINK THE PEOPLE WHO HOLD ON TIGHTLY ARE THE ONES WHO ARE DESPEARATELY CLINGING TO THAT LAST BIT OF HOPE; BUT THEIR THE ONES THAT ARE TYRING TO HOLD ON FOR ALL THE WRONG REASONS (FEAR, SELFISHNESS, IMAGE, ETC.)...THE REASONS THAT IN THE END EITHER HELP YOU TO FAIL MISERABLY OR CAUSE YOU SEVERE UNHAPPINESS. THIS HAS BEEN ALOT OF MY LIFE... SEEING PEOPLE HOLD ON AND FAIL TO BECOME HAPPY... AND HONESTLY IM REALLY TIRED OF SEEING IT. IF SOMETHING ISNT GOING TO WORK OUT THEN YOU CANT FIX IT BY HOLDING ON EVEN TIGHTER. SOME PEOPLE VIEW THIS AS STEPPING UP...TRYING TO SALVAGE AND SAVE WHATS NOT REALLY THEIR.. BUT ME, I CALL THIS PUSHING BACK... HOLDING ON TO WHATS FAMILIAR BECAUSE ITS EASIER AND TRYING TO SAVE WHATS NOT THERE BECAUSE YOUR TO SCARED TO CHANGE OR FACE WHAT ELSE IS OUT THER. BUT IF YOU SPEND ALL YOUR TIME TRYING TO SAVE SOMETHING THATS NOT THERE, WELL THATS PRETTY UNFAMILIAR ISNT IT?

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